Being Healthier

When you wake up in the morning to every feel like you are in a Twilight Zone?  Every thought you have doesn’t make sense and you just feel very cloudy.  You’re surprised that you made it into work because you can’t even remember the drive in.  :)

I really hope that I am not alone here.

 

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Random picture of Emma because she is so cute!!

 

We can try so hard to get the outside healthy that we forget to work on the inside at the same time.  Its actually the most important.  When my relationship with Christ is off, everything else seems to follow.  Work, health, decisions…everything.  There seems to be this darkness that just hangs over you.  A cloud so to speak.

The scary thing?  Sometimes that cloud can feel like it stays there a long time. 

A really long time.

 

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Sweet Sophie!

 

When I step outside of myself, I can view the process of moving closer to Christ as a beautiful thing.  Even when it hurts. 

No matter how the outside looks, the inside could be screaming out to be saved.  Healed.  Seen.  Rescued. 

I could follow the best workout program and still not be healthy.  When I work on my relationship with Christ, I make better choices.  Better choices when it comes to eating and working out. 

 

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Because I am fearfully and wonderfully made, I want to put good things in my body. 

 

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So when you think about considering a healthy lifestyle, it all must work together.  The inside must be healthy too. 

Whatever you put in your body, comes out. 

 

I may not have it all figured out but I love the fact that I have a Father who is about giving us chances everyday and every minute to make good choices and to follow Him. 

If you are screaming out on the inside and you feel like no one can hear you, He can.  He knows you so well because He created you. 

 

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You must care enough about yourself to become a healthier you. 

Inside and Out.

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He is Able

Pull a chair up and have a cup of coffee with me!  I’ve only got a minute and then I am heading to church. 

Do you need some encouragement this morning?

 

I sure do.

Everything in me wanted to stay in bed this morning and just sleep the day away.  But I am not going to give in!

 

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I was thinking this morning….. The only time that I actually had a conversation with someone yesterday was at Wal-mart.  The only time.  One of the things that I struggle with the most fighting depression is that I can feel lonely and alone all at the same time.  I want to be around others so that I don’t feel so lonely and yet I want to hide away and lock all of the doors, shut the windows and close my eyes.

The struggle.

 

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It is truly a minute by minute decision to allow God to work in me.  I don’t want to simply exist in this life but to live. 

 

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If you find yourself this morning feeling alone, just know that you are not.  Sometimes all I think that He wants us to do is to be still and be with Him. 

 

I hope you have a wonderful Sunday!

Science Fair 2015

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So this girl won third place in her division and second place overall for her science project!  

 

 

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You do not want to know what they were laughing at!  I just had to share this picture though.  Just looking at it makes me laugh.

 

 

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They had the coolest activities there for the kids to do and to show the families that showed up. 

 

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I love them to the moon and back!

I love everything about these kids.  :)

 

As this week comes to an end, I am looking forward to getting my meals together and getting ready to start week four of InsanityMax30.  I have zero plans tomorrow and I am going to church with a friend of mine Sunday! 

 

I hope you have an amazing weekend!!

Being Steadfast

Do you every think of the past or past mistakes and it just take over every thought and action of that day?  That week?  I do.  I mean if the Olympics had a games surrounded by that very thing, I would win. 

We all think that right?

 

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Well guess what?

We can decide in an instant to not let that take over our lives!

Those things in our past don’t have to define who we are this very day.  This second. 

There are some big mess ups in my past let me tell ya but I know that when God looks at me, He doesn’t see this screw-up or this mistake.  He sees His daughter and oh how He loves her.

 

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I read something this morning that I wanted to share with you….

 

But this I called to mind, and therefore I have hope:

The steadfast love of the Lord never ceases; his mercies never come to an end;

they are new every morning; great is your faithfulness. 

“The Lord is my portion,” says my soul, “therefore I will hope in him.”

Lamentations 3:21-24

 

 

Simply put every morning that I get up, it’s new.  My thoughts are new.  My actions are new.  My words are new.  Everything. 

 

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Our love for Jesus is deep.

But His love for us is deeper.

His love for us is constant,

whatever season or state we’re in.

He redeems us and refines us because of

this great love, not because

of what we do. 

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Health/Workouts:

So the last few weeks I have cut lots of sweets and extra’s out of my diet and I am starting to see and feel the difference! 

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I have also been doing the InsanityMax30

 

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I am on my third week with this program and it’s my favorite so far. Even sticking to the modifications!

 

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I think that part of the difference this time has been the shoes that I am wearing.  Nike Free and they are perfect for this type of workout. 

 

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As for my meals, I have been really cutting my portions and sticking to my meal plan.  I have a couple of recipes that I want to share with you too!  Coming soon!!  Taco Soup and Paleo Cookies

 

Well, that’s about it for now… I hope you had a wonderful day! 

True Identity

Good morning to you and Happy Sunday! 

It’s been a minute since I was last here but sometimes that just happens. 

 

I wanted to share with you one of the things that I ready in my quiet time this morning.  The house is quiet and it’s raining.  That’s all that I hear and it’s such a beautiful sound.  I love that it was quiet enough for me to hear the whisper of Jesus.  In those moments I feel closer to Him.  As if we are having a cup of coffee talking about well……Him.

My Identity.

Growing up I was a chunker let me tell ya.  I couldn’t wait to eat.  Anything really, but I found my love in sweets.  Candy, cupcakes, chocolate…..you name it, I ate it.  It’s not something that you really even think about as a kid, you just do it.  You haven’t yet figured out that our bodies react differently to food.  Some it has no affect. Me on the other hand…… I can just think about a good piece of cake with extra icing and my pants get tight.

It is what it is.

Slowly but surely I started to feel like my identity came from being the “fat one”.  Thoughts would consume me of wanting to lose weight and wanting to be like all of the others girls and yet I was only a kid. 

 

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As I got older, it only got worse.  I never dated.  I didn’t have a boyfriend in school.  My favorite thing was to go grocery shopping with my mom and then want to eat the things that I had gotten all at once. 

Even now, I struggle with this.  My identity.  Where does it come from? 

And then I hear it.

That whisper.

“You are Mine”

Did you hear it that time?

“You are My daughter”

 

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His Word tells me that I am “fearfully and wonderfully made”.  My identity comes straight from Him and Him alone.  I don’t have to answer to anyone else for that.  Even in the midst of a difficult season or wilderness, I am still His and for whatever purpose it may be difficult for a time.  I am reminded everyday however, He is faithful and He is good and He most definitely loves me.

Because?

I am His.

 

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I hope you have an amazing day!

Goals and Such

As I get ready for the coming week, I wanted to share with you some of the things that I am going to be working on.  Goals.  Things I want to reach.

Something that I am trying to do or achieve.

 

Bible Reading:

First I wanted to share with you what I read this morning.  :) 

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The Job answered the LORD and said:  I know that you can do all things, and that no purpose of yours can be thwarted.  Who is this that hides counsel without knowledge?  Therefore I have uttered what I did not understand, things top wonderful for me, which I did not know.  Hear, and I will speak; I will question you, and you make it known to me.  I had heard of you by the hearing of the ear, but now my eye sees you; therefore I despise myself and repent in dust and ashes.

Job 42:1-6

I am in a season of moving forward and leaving behind past regrets and mistakes.  Something I think will be a beautiful journey, both difficult and beautiful. 

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One of the hardest things that a person let alone a women can learn about themselves, is that they don’t have it all together.  Especially in their walk with the LORD.  Even when you think you feel close to Him, you can always get closer.

Even when your time spent with Him is enough, you can always spend more time with Him.

I am at a crossroads in my walk with Him and because I am a completely different person I feel like I am starting over. 

Getting to know my Creator as I am now.  I must admit that as frightening and scary as it sounds, I feel excited.  Well, enough excitement that makes me want to go forward.  ;)

I believe and know that it will be a beautiful journey for me. 

 

Fitness:

As you know I started using the Insanity Max :30 workouts and I have been loving them!  Well, my body hasn’t.  Let me explain. 

When you start a fitness program, you must get the proper equipment and you must master proper form. 

Neither of which I had.

I hurt myself.

More specifically, my back.

My lower back down to my left hip.

I was not pleased at all.

I even eventually had to go to the doctor and get a shot in my backside. 

I couldn’t even make it to work due to the fact that I couldn’t even set up straight!

I was slightly embarrassed.

Anyway, I haven’t worked out since last Saturday and I feel horrible!

The unfortunate thing that they do at the doctors office is weigh you and I found out that I weigh 182 pounds.  What?!?  Over the last year, I have put on 25 pounds and I would like to lose 30.  My BMI is 31% and knowing that made my eyes bug out! 

I feel my best at 150 pounds and with a BMI of 27-28.  Still not perfect in the worlds eyes, but it suits me just fine. 

What does this mean?

It means goals that what it means.

 

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It also means that I ordered the proper gear for my workouts.  Shoes.

I will be sticking to the modification until I master each move.

I will be sticking to a “whole 30ish” type of eating.  Mostly of protein and no processed foods.

I will do my very best.

 

Lately:

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It snowed.  A lot.

 

I also had a Saturday date…….with myself.

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Whole Foods, Barnes and Noble, and new books.

Love Does by Bob Goff

You’re Already Amazing by Holley Gerth

Both of which you should check out!

I also have the book It Was Me All Along by Andie Mitchell.  This book is amazing!! 

 

 

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My Nanny :)

Catching Up.

As I type this up it’s raining outside.  You know, that cold rain.  It’s supposed to turn into freezing rain and snow later on tonight but we’ll see. 

 

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It’s been a bit since we last spoke but one of the most difficult things I find about blogging is that I spend the entire day a work on a computer and sometimes getting on one when I am home is preeeeetty difficult. 

However, blogging is one of my favorite things to do.  I love sharing my life and I love reading about others and and learning from them.  I shamefully admit that I am probably addicted to Instagram.  ;)  But I guess there are worse things to be addicted to.

 

Today is Sunday and today is also my rest day.  I went to church this morning with my dad and was able to use my brand new bible!  Yesterday I went up to Little Rock to Barns and Noble with my sister-n-law Lynn and my niece and nephew and just had a wonderful time!  I think that I could spend all day in a place like that!  We had Chinese for lunch and then headed home in the rain. 

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I stayed up in the sounds booth with my brother this morning to keep him awake.  He had taken some medicine for his sinus’s and it was making him a bit sleepy.  Sister can get away with thumping their brothers in the ear if need be.  :)

 

I spent Valentine’s Day with my niece…..

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We went to get some yogurt at a nearby yogurt place…… We had the place all to ourselves at first but by the time we were leaving, it had started to get busy. 

 

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I started doing the Insanity Max :30 a couple of weeks ago and I love it!

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Crazy eyes!

 

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You know, when I first thought about doing this workout, I thought there is just no way that I can do it!  I am too big of a girl to be jumpin’ around and throwing my body all over the place.  I mean dang…….I am 40! 

And then I thought, “excuses”……. Just plain ole excuses!  I will never know unless I try it and if I don’t try it, I’ll never get to a place that says, “I can do this!”

Here’s the thing.  I surprised myself.  You don’t have to already be fit to try something like this and the passion that ShaunT has about helping others achieve their goals just comes off of your TV! 

I didn’t think that I could do it, but now I know that I can.

 

Guess what?!?

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This happened.

We have a new Whole Foods Market!!!  The other store was smaller and a bit cramped but this one is huge!  I mean when you walk in it’s just a beautiful sight!

 

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I am still working on balance in my diet and trying to eliminate the bad stuff….

 

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Lastly, here are some pictures of the furbabies….

 

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Emma and Sophie with some crazy eyes for cheese!

 

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I was happy for the weekend. 

Happy to be around family.

Happy for cuddle time with the furbabies on a cold day.

Happy to be in church.

Happy to have a new bible.

 

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I think I will have a cup of hot tea now…. :)  And maybe some dark chocolate.