Good Sunday Morning to you my friends! I hope you have enjoyed your weekend! I can’t believe that tomorrow is Monday and another week starts! The good news is that a week and one day I will have my braces on! So excited!!
So it’s official. I finally watched the very last episode of MidSomer Murders on Netflix! It’s been a long journey my friends, but indeed I am finished. Well, until the next set comes on Netflix that is. It’s a great who done it show!
It’s totally raining right now and I can’t tell you how much I love the sound of rain coming down. I am not too fond of storms or tornado’s or lightening or thunder…. but when it’s rain it makes me feel calm and relaxed. I could really just go back to sleep.
From last nights dinner with family. Isn’t he awesome…. He had to get Batman in the picture too!
I tried a new workout yesterday:
5 Rounds of the following:
10 air squats
I really do love these types of workouts! Today I have a run planned, so when I get home from church I will be hitting the treadmill.
Made to Crave:
So I have reached a point in the book that talks about why you may reach for certain things to fill that craving. When we truly crave something, it’s really that we feel a lack of something in our lives. If we were to line us all up and ask the question: Do you have old or currents hurts in your life? I am pretty sure that we would all say yes. Everyone has hurts from their past. If you were to also ask yourself: How would I handle a hurt in my life right now? How would you truly answer it? This is where that lack of feeling comes in.
Do you remember the story in the bible about the Israelites and how they grumbled about how they would have been better off if they had stayed as prisoners in Egypt than coming out to the desert to starve to death??
In the desert the whole community grumbled against Moses and Aaron. The Israelites said to them, “If only we had died by the Lord’s hand in Egypt! There we sat around pots of meat and ate all the food we wanted, but you have brought us out into this desert to starve this entire assembly to death.”
The the Lord said to Moses, “I will rain down bread from heaven for you. The people are to go out each day and gather enough for that day. In this way I will test them and see whether they will follow my instructions.” Exodus 16:2-4
Here is what Lysa has to say about it:
They were never to gather up extra and build big storehouses of manna supplies where they could set up drive-thru windows for McManna Happy Meals. No, God wanted them to take only their portion for one day. The next day they would come to Him and again receive their daily portion. (pg 132)
When we deal with certain things in our lives that makes us doubt our worth we must ask for Him to be our daily portion.
- Losing a boyfriend
- missing out on a big promotion
- Feeling a bit stressed
- Friendships ending
- bills adding up
You name it……There are so many things that can add up to making us feel empty.
To think on hard things keeps us in hard spots and only serves to deepen our feelings of emotional emptiness.
For me, it is about being alone. I mean lets be honest here….I am 38 and have only had two serious relationships in my life and frankly don’t want to even count the first one because it was like ripping out an organ and then trying to stuff it back into another spot. Two, nearly three years of trying to be whole again. A place that I will never be. Due to this relationship however, I built up a HUGE wall of self loathing and the fear of rejection. Two factors that really can limit you from pursuing any other relationships in your life.
Do I regret the relationship? No, because I know that God will use that as a character building moment for me. I am the one however that get want to stay stuck in that feeling of rejection. My emptiness came from feeling that I would never find that “someone” to share my life with. To take care of. To build up. To grow in the Lord with. All of these things I have stored up in my heart. It’s important however, to find my worth in Christ alone before I can truly love someone. When that happens, it makes it easier to love them.
As you can imagine, finding Kevin has been a great joy for me. Still in the new stages of getting to know someone and finding out that this person is just super cool is really a lot of fun. But I can also remember that at the very beginning I felt for sure that I was going to mess it up. Big time. This is wrong my friends, wrong.
I have prayed for this for a very long time. I know my family has prayed for this for a very long time. I am overjoyed when I think about how much he actually likes me and wants to be with me. One day at a time is all that I can ask for and he and I both know in our hearts that God will make a way.
Here’s the catch friends: Kevin lives in another state. Like far away another state. The way we met was really very cool, but I will save that story for another time.
Kevin sent this to me yesterday
So what do you have planned for this awesome Sunday?? Valentines Day is coming up my friends and I can’t tell you how much I am excited about this!! I have Kevin’s package all ready to be mailed out, but I have to do some baking before I can close it up!
I read this post over at Caitlin’s blog this morning and wanted to share: Chasing Chels A New Strength.
Hope you enjoy the rest of your day!!