Morning my friends….I hope you had a wonderful weekend… Sorry for the disappearance, but I took a much needed break. It’s been kind of a whirlwind of ups and downs lately and just plain busyness. Still going through a merger where I work and it’s been kind of tense in the work place. It’s the fear of the unknown is what it boils down to.
Will I still have a job to go to?
Will they close the branch that I work at?
Will some of my close friends lose their jobs?
When will all of the changes take place?
Is it business as usual?
Things like that.
I also haven’t felt all that great. Since we spoke last I have been sick and fighting a yanked muscle in my shoulder. The sickness was just a end of the summer cold and is now gone, but the yanked muscle is unfortunately still there.
I am really not sure what I did, but I think it has something to do with the workouts that I do and the fact that I upped my weights. That’s what you’re supposed to do right?? I had upped my weights long before I started feeling this pain, but add in a bit of tiredness and stress and this doesn’t make a great combination.
It’s much better, but I am still taking it easy.
I was off Saturday and sleeping in was so amazing! The weather was perfect and so I went for a 3.2 mile run and called it good. Running in zero humidity is the best thing ever.
So there is work and muscles. But there is also another struggle that is weighing on me…
I love my church. I was raised in my church. I have friends in my church. My family attends my church. Lately however, I have really struggled as to continuing to attend. Have you ever felt burned out on church? It’s not something that I even like typing out and makes me feel so guilty for doing so, but I just do. To go from being apart of so much and enjoying it, to really just wanting to take a step back and just be.
It breaks my heart beyond what I can comprehend to leave my church, but I just don’t know what else to do.
One of the joys that I have at my church is teaching Sunday School…. I love it, but lately it’s just felt like a job. So I have decided to take a step back and take a break. This makes me so so sad, mainly because I just feel like I am giving up and just hate that.
Please understand that I know it will all work out, but I just wanted to be real with you. My faith has sustained my through many things and this will be no different, but it just hurts.
I did finally book my flight to see my friend Diahann in Ohio…. I will fly out October 11th and I can’t wait to see her!
I do hope that you have a wonderful day my sweet friends.