As I begin this post, I am not really sure how to even start it. I have been listening to the Goliath Must Fall series by Louie Giglio and it has opened my eyes to Gods word in a way that I am loving. First let me say that if you have not heard of this series, you need to go listen to it now.
Goliath Must Fall
Goliath Must Fall: Fear Must Fall
Goliath Must Fall: Rejection Must Fall
Goliath Must Fall: Comfort Must Fall
Goliath Must Fall: Anger Must Fall
Goliath Must Fall: Addiction Must Fall
It’s worth the listen.
What I am finding out, and what I have known for a very long time, is that my giant is the fear of being rejection. Oh don’t get me wrong, I have experienced all of them but its rejection that is the root of the struggle that I have.
Louie touches on the fact that many will say to themselves, “I have NO problem with rejection!”
But they do have cousins:
- low self worth
- low self esteem
- obsessive compulsive
- self hate
It’s amazing how one word from someone can impact your life. It can cripple you. Force you to look outside yourself for the answers. Force you to seek approval from another person.
We can have such an overwhelming fear of being rejected that we forget how it is to truly live and interact with people. I have gone an entire weekend and not had one conversation with another human being.
The good part?
We don’t have to live in a way that is demoralizing.
God wants us to live free.
He wants us to know that He has already won the victory.
Jesus has already taken down that giants that we struggle with.
God wants to be the liberator of our lives!
It can change.
We don’t have to live a life that says, “Yes God is great…….but not great enough for this”.
We can truly live a life and still be vulnerable with others.
We don’t have to hide from others, who we really are.
We can live a life where we don’t compare ourselves to others.
We have to remember that we are fearfully and wonderfully made and that we don’t have to compare ourselves to others.
When I look at your heavens, the work of your fingers, the moon and the stars, which you have set in place, what is man that you care mindful of him, and the son of man that you care for him? Psalm 8:3
For you formed my inward parts, you knitted me together in my mothers womb. I praise you, for I am fearfully and wonderfully made. Wonderful are your works; my soul knows it very well. My frame is not hidden from you, when I was being made in secret, intricately woven in the depths of the earth. Your eyes saw my unformed substance; in your book were written everyone of them. Psalm 139:13
I’m not perfect.
I don’t have it all together.
I feel broken sometimes.
I compare myself to the instagram life.
I hide my pain.
I struggle with loving someone.
I feel shame and guilt sometimes.
My insecurities can run my life…….daily.
Jesus died on the Cross knowing this about me and loving me anyway.
I can run to Him and He accepts me for who I am.