Faith Fitness and Laughter

Why am I doing this?

on June 19, 2012

Morning!!   Well it’s Tuesday.  Yay!!   Action conquers fear!!  I am watching the most recent Extreme Makeover as I type this post up and all that I can say is that I just love Chris.  🙂   Um, can they just come and create a home gym in my house???  Please??  🙂  Um, can Chris come live with me for 3 months???  🙂

This episode is about a woman named Jacqui and I really did feel like I was watching myself on tv.  I can remember having the same feelings that were coming out of her mouth.  Letting her weight limit her from life and letting it destroy any self-esteem that she possessed.  Unfortunately, these are things that I still struggle with.  That’s why I love watching this show!  Sometimes it can take just one person to make a difference in someone’s life.  Well crap….they are reading letters to Jacqui on the show (her dad in particular) now and it’s totally making me cry!!

One of the questions that Chris asks her is, “What happens when life isn’t fair?”   So what does happen?  Do you step back and let life pass you by or do you take action.  Most of the time I let life pass me by because I don’t want to attempt anything that I can’t excel at and I even treat living a healthy lifestyle like that.  Something that used to bring me joy, can sometimes bring me so much frustration and pain and still make me feel like such a failure.

For some, things come easy and for some it’s a struggle.  Part of the frustration that I feel is when people look at me I feel like I can’t make a mistake, in life or in eating right.

 

 

 

Breakfast:

 

One slice of whole wheat-whole grain toast, 1 egg, and one turkey link.  I have also had two cups of coffee!  🙂

 

Mind-games. 

I think that most of the frustrations that I feel with my weight-loss and healthy lifestyle are just crazy mind-games.  It’s crazy to think that something so simple can cripple us to the point of not living.  I mean truly living, not just existing.  So I have to ask myself, why do I want to live this healthy lifestyle??  Do I continue it for others, or am I doing it for myself?  I can’t truly answer that right now.  So for the next few days, or even weeks, I am going to be figuring that out.  I want to be at a place where I am doing it for myself and not for others.

 

Workout:

I am going for a run right after I finish typing up this post. 🙂

 

I also wanted to tell you about my Orthodontist appointment yesterday!  The first phase of the process to getting braces is wearing a mouthpiece for six months that will help the TMJ that I have in the joints right in front of my ears.  Um, wearing this the first day was quite interesting.  I have to wear this 24/7 and even while I eat, which is actually a little difficult.  I am able to take it out to get adjusted to it, but for the most part it has to stay in.  I will be going back every six weeks to get the mouthpiece adjusted.  Yay!!  One step closer to getting braces!!

 

Well, I am off to go for a run!   Have a great day!

 

 

 

 

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8 responses to “Why am I doing this?

  1. congrats on the braces news, so exciting for you. Loving the breakfast!

  2. I used to watch EM all the time, but have fallen off the bandwagon lately. I don’t have enough hrs in the day to do what needs to be done so we cancelled our TV for the summer. It is actually nice not having! I have been relaxing more, reading more, and spending more time getting chores done so I can get to bed at a decent hour. Hope you had a great run!

  3. Home gym in my house…that would be amazing!!! I love not having to leave my house to workout!

  4. What a great post Brandi. I think we all struggle with those feelings of inadequacy at times, and I know I find it hard too when life isn’t fair! One of the hardest parts of adult life has been realising that it just isn’t, and I can’t do anything about that – I can only manage my own actions / reactions. Good luck with reflecting on reasons for healthy living, that is a big topic and question 🙂

    Congratulations on step one to braces too, I remember that phase of having mouthpieces / retainers and it definitely took some getting used to. Mine always came out for eating though!

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