Faith Fitness and Laughter

Our Words

Morning my friends!  How are you this morning??   I am so happy to say that I am in such a better place than I was even two days ago.  One of the things that I have learned (and kind of the hard way) in the last few months is that our words really do have an affect on others.  Yes, the positive words are nice to our ears and we love to tell others that they are doing a good job.  But what about those words that don’t?  And what about those words that aren’t backed with truth.  There’s no action. 

What you see is what you get when you meet me.  I don’t want to ever come across as something that I am not.  Frankly, I like to sleep at night. 

 

Our words can also have an affect on someone so much that it causes other things to happen in that persons life.  Our words affect our families, our friends, our co-workers, husbands, wives… everyone.  But there are words that some people do not hear.  It’s the words that are spoken to ourselves.   The ones that run deep.  Words you would never say in front of anyone else. 

Saying things to ourselves such as; I’m not good enough, You’re such an idiot, What a loser, You don’t belong, create destructive thought patterns that can, to us, seem like a true reality. 

I hope you are going to hang with me here….

 

Dealing with weight my entire life has developed a self image problem.  Sure, I’ve lost weight, but what’s buried deep inside are insecure feelings of self-worth.  If I don’t accomplish something and do it well, my thought process goes straight to negativity and this is a distorted way of looking at things.  And a false one.

These really are lies that somehow become truths in our minds. 

I am still amazed at how much I let one persons actions and lies affect the thoughts of myself.  I’m almost ashamed to admit that to you. 

 

There has to be an end to it right?  I think there is.  When God looks at me, He sees His daughter.  Someone that He loves.  Has worth.  Leaning on that and not on what others think, or say, or do. 

 

 

 

New Recipe!!

 

How to Make Homemade Box Mix Style Brownies

 

I am making these this weekend! 

 

I also wanted to share my dinner that I had last night……  Smile

 

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Tilapia, sweet potato wedges and broccoli!  I love this meal!  Just looking at it makes me full!  Yesterday’s weather was so perfect and today’s is supposed to be exactly the same.  The sun was out and it was beautiful. 

 

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One of the lovely young ladies that used to work at our branch came by with these little babies…

 

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I wanted one so bad!!!  For like a few seconds… Winking smile

 

 

I hope you have a wonderful Tuesday!!

 

 

Talk to me:  How do you let words affect you?  How do you handle them when they are negative?

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All you are is Tall!

Morning guys! 

 

I hope you all had a wonderful weekend and are ready to start your week!  Yes, it’s Monday, but it is a new day.  Yesterday, for breakfast, I had something that I hadn’t had in a very long time.  A smoothie!!

 

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  • 1 frozen banana
  • 1 cup of almond milk
  • 1 large handful of spinach
  • 1 scoop of Whey protein powder
  • 2 tbsp of PB2

 

So so good.

 

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I was also reminded of something yesterday.  I have read the book of Philippians many many times, but yesterday at church I read 4:13 with a whole new set of eyes.  Let me share it with you…

 

Brethren, I do not count myself to have apprehended; but one thing I do, forgetting those things which are behind and reaching forward to those things which are ahead.

 

This is Paul talking to the church at Philippi, reminding them that he counted everything as a loss just to gain the knowledge of Christ.  What stuck out to me the most??  It was the word “forgetting”.  Forgetting here, is in the present tense.  It’s in the process of.  Still continuing. 

So many times I have let what others think of me, or the insecurities that I have, hinder me from being apart of Gods work or plan for my life.  Oh He must shake His head sometimes!!   What are things that can distract us from moving forward?

 

  • Disappointments
  • Failures
  • Distorted plans
  • Misguided focus
  • Heartaches

 

All are painful and hindering in their own right.  My pastor told the story of how he had to present this sermon in a seminary class one day and at the end his professor was to tell them what he thought.  All his professor could come up with was, “You’re tall”.  He talked about how sometimes being tall had hindered him and kept him from doing what God wanted him to do. 

It made me think of things that I have or have had in my life that have kept me from moving forward.  How am I to grow in Christ if things are good all of the time?  I must go through the difficult times too for a deeper relationship with Him.  If my goal is to be more Christ-like, there must be change and sometimes heartache.  God’s word says we were made in His image, but I believe it is speaking of character too. 

There will be (not maybe), but will be times when we feel like just crumbling. 

 

But we have this treasure in earthen vessels, that the excellence of the power may be of God and not of us.  We are hard-pressed on every side, yet not crushed; we are perplexed, but not in despair, persecuted, but no forsaken; struck down, but not destroyed; always carrying about in the body the dying of the Lord Jesus, that the life of Jesus also may be manifested in our body.

 

I think and believe that we go through difficult times so that the power of Christ can be seen.  The forgetting is a process and is something that can be constant.  Forgetting past hurts, failures, disappointments, plans that you thought would work out, and yes even successes. 

 

Everyday is better than the day before.  Smile

 

 

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Marvelous in my Monday!!  It’s sponsored by the lovely Katie at Healthy Diva Eats..

 

Marvelous is the fact that I have been driving on an expired DL for almost four months now!!   How is that marvelous??  Well, I just happened to be looking at it and saw the year it expires and I nearly screamed out loud!  It just struck me funny…..  How in the world did I miss this??  Lol!  I have got to go get it renewed like yesterday! 

 

Marvelous is the fact that I feel really good right now.  After a very long month of not feeling all that great, I am so glad to actually feel like working out.  With the new running shoes in my closet, my feet are itching to run. 

 

Marvelous is the blogging community.  I really can’t say it enough.  I love it.  The different people that you meet and make contact with.  It’s like none other!  

 

Marvelous is the drive that I have in the morning.  Lately, it was a time to just fret over what was wrong with me and worry about things that are out of my control.  Tomorrow I am looking forward to spending that time in prayer and reflection. 

 

Marvelous are my friends.  I can’t tell them enough how much I appreciate just their presence.  All they have to do is hug me and I feel so much better.  Last night at church my friend Gale sat with me….her friendship means so much to me and I appreciate just being able to set there in silence.  My neighbor Cameron who just lets me come to her house and hang out with her and her family.  My sister-n-law Lynn who I have cried to many many nights in the last month, listens to me and sets her feelings for me aside to give me godly advice.  I love them all! 

 

 

Okay!  Now it’s your turn!  What’s Marvelous about your Monday??!

 

 

 

I hope you guys have a great day! Smile

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Super Saturday! :)

Happy Sunday morning to you!   I just wanted to pop in and give you the highlights of my awesome weekend with the kiddo’s!  I know the title say’s Saturday and it’s Sunday, but this fabulous day was definitely on Saturday!

 

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We went for walk!!  Dalton had actually just woke up from a little nap….the lil man was all tuckered out from the car wash that our church was putting on..

 

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Um, that orange fanta looks amazing!

 

 

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Mexican food!!

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Of course the kids ate chicken nuggets and french fries… Winking smile 

 

 

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We walked.

We ate Mexican food.

And we baked cookies.

 

It was the best day!

 

Anytime that I am around my niece and nephew I am reminded that everything is going to be ok.  Life does go on.  And……there is beauty in life.  There are stories of dolphins with mechanical tails, that when the story is told their eyes are wide with imagination.  There are funny sayings that go like this, “I was gonna say that, but you took the words right out of my mouth!”

There are moments to be had that, in reality, you will never get back. 

Am I sad?

Yes.

Am I having a tough time?

Yes.

But I am also alive and I have people around me that love me and want to be in my life.  That look at me and say, “we have the best time when we spend the night with you.”

 

I hope you have a great day!

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They came!

How’s your afternoon going?  Mine has actually been a really good one Smile   This morning I was actually able to sleep in and I can’t tell you how much I enjoyed that.  Not having anywhere pressing to be was really nice.  I enjoyed a cup of coffee and even watched some tv… 

I also went for a run!!

 

3.2 Miles

 

Mile One:    9.46

Mile Two:    8.57

Mile Three:  9.03

 

Total time:    29.33

Average Pace:   9.13

 

 

I really just wanted to enjoy this run and I really wanted to run more than two miles.  Done and done.   It wasn’t my best or my fastest, but it did feel amazing to do!  I heart running. 

 

I told you guys that I ordered some Trail Running shoes right??   Well, they came!!

 

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Aren’t they pretty??  I immediately put them on and they fit perfectly!

 

I splurged and got these too….

 

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I really can’t wait to try these babies out!

 

 

Breakfast:

 

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Look how green everything is here??  We’ve had lots of rain!

 

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Two eggs with some spinach….  I put the spinach in the food processor again……I really like doing that. Smile

 

 

Our children’s program at church put on a car wash today and that is where I picked up my niece and nephew….

 

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We weren’t on the road good and this is what happened… 

 

We are going to eat Mexican food tonight!!  I can’t wait either!

 

 

What have you been up to this afternoon??  Just relaxing??

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Do I get angry?

Saturday and it’s cloudy.  It’s raining too…That’s ok, I get to keep my niece and nephew tonight and I am pretty happy about that.  They really do give the best hugs.  In fact, last night I needed one so I drove over to their house and got not one, but two!  I asked my nephew Dalton to give me a hug and he put up one finger and said, “you’re not leaving yet” and I told him that I wasn’t, but that I would probably get another hug before I left.  Smile 

 

Thank you guys so much for the support with yesterdays post.  That is why I love the blogging world so much.  The support and encouragement that you get really is amazing. 

 

How in the world can things change so fast?  I was talking to my sister-n-law last night and I told her that I was just so tired.  Tired of feeling like I had done something.  Tired of feeling like I was this horrible person and that I just wasn’t good enough for this person.  Tired of feeling guilty about something that really has nothing to do with me.  Tired of being told things only to feel lied to. 

Was it something that I said?  Or the way that I acted?  I am tired of rehashing things over in my head trying to figure all of these things out.  Tired. 

 

Here’s the thing.  I have yet to get mad about any of it.  In fact, I still want to reach out and stay in contact.  Knowing that this doesn’t help anything at all. 

 

All of these feelings stem back to the fact that I worry about what others think.  It saddens me to think that Kevin would have ill feelings toward me or think that I am someone that isn’t worthy of having a relationship with.  It breaks my heart to think that he is happy to have me out of his life.  That he would rather be around someone that caused him so much pain and heartache than me.  It breaks my heart to think that he would feel like he wasn’t using his head.   Keep in mind, I don’t know if he feels these things, but my mind races to every negative thought. 

 

I want to push past this and get to a point where it doesn’t hurt so much.  Everyday does get better though and it does hurt less and less.  I just don’t want this to affect how I trust people and take them at their word.  I assume people are going to be honest and be trustworthy, but that isn’t always the case.   I also assume that people are honest with themselves. 

 

I just want a relationship that draws me closer to Christ.  This is what a relationship should do.  I don’t want to be co-dependent on a relationship that isn’t healthy.  That brings out the worst in me.  That makes me feel bad to be in.  I want commitment, openness, trust, goodness, love.  Things that I feel like I deserve.

 

Thanks so much for allowing me to share this with you guys. 

 

 

Dinner:

 

I did make the best dinner last night when I got home from work. 

 

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I can of cannellini beans, two turkey sausage links, and a large handful of spinach (put in a food processor)

I cooked the turkey links before I put them in the beans and then put the spinach in…

This was so good…

 

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I could have probably put in more spinach!!

 

 

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I have also enjoyed these lately….. 

 

 

So how does someone move past a broken heart?    This feeling of rejection??  This feeling of embarrassment and egg on the face?

 

  1. Unplug.  This is something I am going to do more of. 
  2. Be around my family.  So many times I just want to close myself off to the quiet and just be alone.  To stay in my sadness and not feel anything.
  3. Get out.  I plan to get outside as much as I can and the weather permitting.
  4. Pray. 
  5. Read.
  6. Focus on someone else.

 

 

 

I hope that where ever you are today, you are having a great one Smile

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