Faith Fitness and Laughter

Victim?

on November 7, 2014

Hi!!  I hope you have had a great week so far and you are getting ready for the weekend.  I have been on vacation this week but I have mostly just chilled out and relaxed.

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I also spent some time with these munchkins..  🙂

 

It rained all day on Wednesday so I binged on Criminal Minds Season One 🙂  Um, can I just say that if you watch that show, I want to be Penelope!!

 

I have also done some baking and trying new recipes!

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Chocolate Pumpkin Bread with Pumpkin Spice Icing

 

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Pumpkin Pie Spice Snickerdoodles

 

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Chocolate Swirl Pumpkin Bread with Orange Glaze

 

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I had my brackets removed and replaced this week and was so excited to see a preview of my teeth!  Hopefully it won’t be too much longer with them on.

 

Reading:

One of the books that I am currently reading right now is, So Long Insecurity, You’ve been a very bad friend to us.  Beth Moore is one of my favorite Christian authors and this one does not disappoint.  This is the second time I have read this book and it comes at a great time in this season of my life. 

I read something the other day (I think it was on Instagram) about how we should always be prepared to go through different seasons in our life.  How do you prepare for something like that?  My faith tells me that I should be in Gods word to prepare for something like that. 

I have such a huge fear of rejection and sometimes it can even paralyze me.  Other times it can cause me to use poor judgment and make bad decisions.  Especially with men. 

I don’t date much.  Not for any other reason than that I don’t really put myself out there to meet anyone.  When I do however and it doesn’t work out, my judgment is impaired. It’s hard for me to cope with it not working out.  It’s as if I take it personally and I am this leaper that can’t get someone to love me.  Now I know in my heart that this isn’t true but how in the world can I get past it?!  I become very withdrawn and even to the point of being depressed about it.  I don’t eat or I binge.  I become disinterested in really just about everything.  I haven’t worked out in probably a month and when I do it completely wipes me out!  I have had neck and shoulder pain for a couple of weeks now that have also caused me not to be able to work out. 

I’m tired.

I never really feel well.

Focus is out the window!

I either don’t eat

or eat too much.

My Vitamin D is low and my thyroid is acting up.

 

Here’s the thing.  I don’t want to be a victim. And when I say victim please understand that I am only speaking of myself.   I want to deal with these things with a little bit of grace and dignity.  Lately, that isn’t the case.  I am also trying to cut myself some slack too and not be afraid to ask for some help. 

 

I just wanted to share this with you guys.  🙂

 

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I hope you enjoy your weekend! 

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One response to “Victim?

  1. I really loved reading So Long Insecurity! I read it last year and think it is one of those books to read on a yearly or bi-yearly basis. Beth Moore is such a wonderful teacher and I think that book really hits home for any woman – no matter how deep their insecurities! I’m sorry you’re in a more stressful season of life right now. Just remember to keep clinging to God’s promises that He (and only He) can and will bring us out of the valley. ❤

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