Faith Fitness and Laughter

Ebb and Flow of life

It’s nearly the middle of August and Fall is just around the corner.  I’ll be the first to admit that I actually pulled out my Fall decorations this morning.  You know, just so they’ll be close by when it’s time to put them out.

This mornings breakfast is brought to you by bacon….



two eggs, a few slices of roasted potatoes, shredded cheese and bacon

So good


I’ve actually been nursing a back injury for a few months now so working out has been put on the back burner for now.  Something I don’t like. 



I finally gave in and have been going to physical therapy three times a week.  Just this week I am finally starting to have some relief and I am so excited about that!  There were mornings that I could not walk unless I sat on a heating pad for 30 minutes… least.  Incidentally, I used the heating pad so much that it stopped working!

Crossfit has become such a big part of my life that I can’t see myself not doing it.  With that said, not being able to do it has given me a lot of time to how I approach it.  One of the big things that I have not given much attention to is mobility.  Stretching after a workout, especially at my age, is really important.  When your mobility is taken away, you kind of learn to appreciate it when you have it. 

I’ve also learned that as an athlete, it is still our responsibility to be proactive in our own health.  Don’t get me wrong, I hang on to every word the coaches say but I also know that they all can’t come home with me, watch what I eat, make sure I stretch, get enough water.  These are things that we are to monitor and control ourselves.  Besides, we’re adults. 

It’s definitely opened my eyes in such a way that if/when I make it back, I am going to approach it differently.  I want to focus on getting stronger with out hurting myself. 




Above anything, I have missed the community. 







Moving on…

It’s hard to believe that it’s been nearly three months since my mom passed away.  Grief is such an ebb and flow of emotions on a daily basis.  Just the other day I had a horrible day at work and all I wanted to do was talk to her.

Even as I gathered the Fall decorations this morning, I thought of her.  She loved to have the house decorated and doing it this year will be bitter sweet without her. 


I never really think of her as gone…..just away. 


I love that God created us to withstand hard things.  To adapt.  To grow from adversity.  For everything, there is a season.




I hope you have a wonderful weekend!

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A Roller Coaster

Last night when I went to bed I knew that when I woke up this morning, I wanted to be ready to make some changes in my life.  I feel like I’m on this roller coaster when it comes to my personal life.  Can I get off now?  I am so tired of allowing men to shape how I view myself.

Inside and out.




What is it in me that is so lacking that I feel the need for a man to define me?

I have never been in a healthy relationship and at this point, I am not sure I would even recognize one.  I can’t even recognize what’s ok and what’s not ok in a relationship.  I went the hard and difficult way to find out that sex, is not love.



I turn myself inside out trying to please that person and literally become who they want.  How is that right?  Or fair?


I want so badly to be healthy not just on the outside, but in my heart and thought process.  Over the last few months I have been called; fat, crazy, victim, petty, fake, dumb a**.  I’ve even been told that I have a screw loose. 

And these are just words to my face.

Spoken by more than one person.

Some of them out of my own mouth.


How are these words ok?

And I am not telling you this for you to feel sorry for me.  Don’t.

I am not perfect and I have done things that are wrong and horrible.


How do you get up out of bed each day with these words weighing you down.  I can tell you that sometimes, it really difficult.  Some days, it seems impossible.




I long for a husband and partner to be with, but what if it never happens?  I have to be okay with that.  I’m just not sure if the process of accepting it is something I can pull off with grace and dignity.

I am so insecure when it comes to men that when they aren’t interested in being with me, the rejection I feel is crippling.  My fear is that the wall I have surrounded myself with to keep from getting hurt will cause me to miss out on something wonderful.







I have learned that every season that we go through, God is right there with us. 

Every season is different and sometimes really difficult.

The dark night of the soul can last days, weeks, months, or even years. 

My value doesn’t come from any earthly thing.

It’s okay to not be okay.




He Is

I have seen this several times but I wanted to share it with you this morning.  Lately, I have needed a reminder of who God is.  I have forgotten that our purpose is to love Him and have a relationship with Him.  All the other stuff?  Extras and blessings.


Who’s Your Daddy?

Remembering Who you belong to in trying times.


He is the first and the last

The beginning and the end.

He’s the Keeper of Creation and the Creator of all.

He’s the architect of the universe and the manager of all time.

He always was, always is and always will be.




and never undone.

He was bruised but brought healing.

He was pierced but eased pain.

He was persecuted but brought freedom.

He was dead and brings life.

He is risen to bring power!

And He reigns to bring peace.

The world can’t understand Him.

Armies can’t defeat Him.

Schools can’t explain Him

And leaders, they can’t ignore Him.

Herod couldn’t kill Him.

Nero couldn’t crush Him.

The new age cannot replace Him

And Oprah cannot explain Him away.


You remind yourself that His life, His love, He is longevity and He is the Lord.

He is goodness and kindness and faithfulness

And He is God.

He is holy and righteous and powerful and pure.

His ways are right.

His Word eternal

His will unchanging

And His mind is on us.

He’s our savior, our guide, our peace, our joy, our comfort, our Lord

And He rules our lives.

I serve Him because

His bond is love

His yoke is easy

His burden is light

and His goal for us is abundant life.

I follow Him because

He’s the wisdom of the wise.

The power of the powerful.

The ancient of days.

The ruler of all rulers

The leader of all leaders.

His goal is a relationship with me.

He’ll never leave you

Never forsake you

Never mislead you

Never forget you

Never overlook you

and never cancel your appointment is His appointment book.


When you fall, He’ll lift you up.

When you fail, He’ll forgive you.

When you’re weak, Hs is strong.
When you’re lost, He is your way.

When you’re afraid, He’s your courage.

When you stumble, He will steady you.

When you’re hurt, He’s gonna heal you.

When you’re broken, He will mend you.

When you’re blind, He will lead you.

When you’re hungry, He will feed you.

When you face trials, He is with you.

When I face persecution, He shields me.

When I face problems, He will comfort me.

When I face loss, He will provide for me.

And when we face death, He will carry us all home to meet Him.

He is everything

for everybody


every time

and in every way.

He is your God.

That sisters, is Who you belong to. 



He is by Priscilla Shire

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What’s To Know

Getting to know someone can be a challenge sometimes, especially when distances is involved.  There’s some anonymity involved when your trying to get to know someone when you can’t be around them all of the time.  Or, in some cases, you’re not around them at all. 

How much do you share?

What should the focus be?

How much do you invest?


If you know me at all, I am a complete open book.  I even have a tendency to over-share on occasion…… ask me anything and I’ll tell you.   I think that when you share who you are, you risk being vulnerable.  Something that can be kinda scary…. But I also think that there is something beautiful in sharing who you are.  You never know who you might reach.  Who you will impact.

I thought I would take some time and share some of who I am with you.



Oddities and all….


  • I love things to be clean.  I like to keep a clean kitchen most of all.  Don’t set a dish by the sink, you’re done with it… just didn’t know you were.
  • I get pleasure in mowing the yard.  It’s kinda weird but it’s therapeutic for me to be out there cutting the grass…..I love it.  No really, I do.
  • I have this uncanny sense of smell.  It’s a gift…… and also a curse.
  • My favorite books to read are history books.  I took a theology class for fun.  I also like dystopia themed novels… Divergent anyone?
  • I wanted to be a dancer when I was a kid.  The only thing?  I like Twinkies too. And cookies.  Lots of cookies….
  • Some of my favorite memories as a child was going to see my Nanny in Mississippi.  We would go in the middle of the night to miss out on the traffic and the heat.  It was a lot of fun 🙂


I am not even sure what year this is…. 


  • I love learning about history.  We’ve established that I like to read about it but I also love to just experience it.  Learning about why we have certain things and how it all came to be about.  I just find it fascinating.
  • One of the ways that I learn is by memorization.  When I took some seminary classes, the only way I could learn was by writing it down.  Over and over.  A lot.  Like, A LOT.
  • I think it’s important to find a mentor.  Someone you can look up to and learn from.  Someone who seeks God and is willing to tell you the truth, even if it hurts.  Thank you Bro. Joe!
  • The thought of children in other countries and even here in the United States going to bed without being told they are loved breaks my heart into a billion pieces. 
  • I didn’t have my first real relationship until I was 30.  I’m 40. 
  • I used to weigh 250 pounds!!


I think my brother had a 26 inch waist here…..And this is not at my heaviest.

  • I love to hike….










  • One of my strengths is also my weakness.  Compassion.
  • I wouldn’t really consider myself a leader but rather a follower. 
  • I can also be pushy.  If I see something that I want, I just push and push until I get it.  But in most cases, it wasn’t really mine to begin with.



I could keep going!  I say this in closing…..

To know someone takes effort and willingness to do so.  You have to decided whether that person is worth getting to know and to be apart of your life.  Will they add to it or take something away from it?  Do they push you to be a better person?  Are they on your team?

You have to decide.

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My Giant

As I begin this post, I am not really sure how to even start it.  I have been listening to the Goliath Must Fall series by Louie Giglio and it has opened my eyes to Gods word in a way that I am loving.  First let me say that if you have not heard of this series, you need to go listen to it now.


Goliath Must Fall

Goliath Must Fall: Fear Must Fall

Goliath Must Fall: Rejection Must Fall

Goliath Must Fall: Comfort Must Fall

Goliath Must Fall: Anger Must Fall

Goliath Must Fall: Addiction Must Fall


It’s worth the listen.


What I am finding out, and what I have known for a very long time, is that my giant is the fear of being rejection.  Oh don’t get me wrong, I have experienced all of them but its rejection that is the root of the struggle that I have.

Louie touches on the fact that many will say to themselves, “I have NO problem with rejection!”

But they do have cousins:

  • Insecurities
  • low self worth
  • low self esteem
  • obsessive compulsive
  • perfectionist
  • self hate

It’s amazing how one word from someone can impact your life.  It can cripple you.  Force you to look outside yourself for the answers.  Force you to seek approval from another person. 




We can have such an overwhelming fear of being rejected that we forget how it is to truly live and interact with people.  I have gone an entire weekend and not had one conversation with another human being. 


The good part?

We don’t have to live in a way that is demoralizing. 

God wants us to live free.

He wants us to know that He has already won the victory.

Jesus has already taken down that giants that we struggle with.

God wants to be the liberator of our lives!

It can change.


We don’t have to live a life that says, “Yes God is great…….but not great enough for this”. 

We can truly live a life and still be vulnerable with others.

We don’t have to hide from others, who we really are.

We can live a life where we don’t compare ourselves to others. 




We have to remember that we are fearfully and wonderfully made and that we don’t have to compare ourselves to others. 


When I look at your heavens, the work of your fingers, the moon and the stars, which you have set in place, what is man that you care mindful of him, and the son of man that you care for him?  Psalm 8:3



For you formed my inward parts, you knitted me together in my mothers womb.  I praise you, for I am fearfully and wonderfully made.  Wonderful are your works; my soul knows it very well.  My frame is not hidden from you, when I was being made in secret, intricately woven in the depths of the earth.  Your eyes saw my unformed substance; in your book were written everyone of them.  Psalm 139:13



I’m not perfect.

I don’t have it all together.

I feel broken sometimes.

I compare myself to the instagram life.

I hide my pain.

I struggle with loving someone.

I feel shame and guilt sometimes.

My insecurities can run my life…….daily.




Jesus died on the Cross knowing this about me and loving me anyway. 

I can run to Him and He accepts me for who I am.














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